Help me choose... pls

Two choices.. first,"if it's meant to be,it will find it's way" second,"if u want it,go get it".

I'm the one who would generally make the second choice cos I like hard work,I like to make genuine efforts to enjoy the taste of success n achievement,that's where the joy of happiness lies to me. Though they say, "kismat se zada aur waqt se Pehle kuch nahi milta". In that case my approach will always be defeated.

If I make the first choice, I 'll be known as one of the most patient guys living on the planet who expect a miracle from the destiny. They would wait for God to wave a magic wand when the time is right and they 'll get wat they want.

Today I'm stuck. Cos I genuinely need something, I've been making efforts,working hard but the wait isn't over. Today all the aspects of my life are found stuck between these choices. I don't like my today anyway, and I don't want to wait for you till tomorrow.
First approach is clumsy, and the second isn't working. All i have is optimism, and positivity.. I know both of us will win n be proud on the this time that we survived.

Fear

Each one of us is always scared of something. Something which is invisible, something which is only felt by our conscious. Maybe because of our poor experience, or sometimes because we are taught to be scared of it. We are always scared to face it. We don't wanna give life a chance to confront and try to overcome it. I believe even fear is not fond of us. But wat we do, whenever we realize that we are gonna be free from all the fears from now, we run away from the fearless situation and choose fear to stay with us coz we have been very comfortable with it for a very long time. Why don't we understand that it will grow inside us by time. What is so fascinating about fear? Why is it becoming our best friend, why are we in love with it? Many ask why i tattooed "freedom"... what it means to me. Freedom from my fears is one of the answers. I'm not scared of anything if you are there :-)

I'm perfectly sad!

I see lots of happy faces around me. Don't know what they are happy at. Some are genuinely happy and celebrating, some are masked, maybe to hide their inner grief. Seems like I'm the only one not wearing any mask.😂 Not possible dude. I'm not obligated to be perfectly fine and that's fine! If I'm nt supposed to be shy to express my happiness, my love, my anger then why should I be biased with my sadness. No one likes pretentious people. They look awful. Stay real as much as you can. But you know what, somewhere someone would be there to share your grief, find solutions to your problems, try to connect with you emotionally n cheer you up and motivate you to give yourself a second chance. Never let that chance go. I'm perfectly sad tonight coz I'm not happy about things going on,so what's wrong. No one is there cheering me up, cracking jokes to make me laugh or motivate me, I'm into my own sadness all alone. And I'm not in a mood to smile. So tonight I'm gonna celebrate with my sadistic mood for being there with me for so long😂  Who does that dude, I'm gonna party tonight! "Gam na hota to khushi ki dua koi nahi karta"

Time's fault?

I don't know how it is. When something good happens, it has a really short life. Maybe It doesn't impact us in a great way. Though it makes you feel great, you always want it. Then a shit called time changes. It changes n it changes everything. Something wrong happens and it leaves an impact on a person's mind or maybe life. It impacts differently on everyone. Some try to get over it n focus on other gud things but the rest can never let it go. The intensity of such a happening is so heavy on them that it effects their mind n soul. Then they wait for the right time but till then they become a different person. They 're nt the same till then. Their mood, perception, everything changes.

Why are we made different? Why can't each one of us share the same feelings towards a situation so that it makes everything so simple to handle. Be it any kind of feeling or emotion, if it's similar in all of us then what's wrong? Even if it's different, its all complicated or maybe not functioning well... "I wish I was god"...